when i stopped counting.

This time around, I haven’t counted anything. I don’t keep track of distance between nursing sessions, or the amount of hours slept. I don’t look at scales or measure milk. I don’t think too far ahead or too far behind. I cringe when people ask me how old she is, because I don’t want to think about it. This time around, I’ve stayed right her, in each moment. I cry when her diapers grow too tight and she fights to hold her own head up; this time, out of sadness instead of relief. I simply can’t use the word redemptive enough.

It absolutely took me three newborns to get here, and I have no regrets. But oh, how I wish I could go back do it over with each of my other children. Even for just a day. Instead, I’ll rest in the joy that is Hadassah Lee. And I’ll shout it from the rooftops, to any pregnant or new moms who will listen… please, for the love of all things precious, do yourself a favor and stop counting.

25 thoughts on “when i stopped counting.”

  1. Amen. My baby is 2 1/2 months old and he’s my second. I’m right there with you. No counting, no reading about the next milestone. Simply enjoying being present with my boy. They grow up so fast right before my eyes. I keep saying “you don’t have to figure everything out, you just take your time.”

  2. It’s so hard for me not to count the hours of sleep I’m getting/not getting. But this time is so fleeting and you’re right – I think I’d be a little happier if I stopped counting.

  3. I noticed almost immediately with my second one that since I wasn’t worried about all those things, and I wasn’t learning how to be a mom, I was enjoying my baby more and able to fall in love with him more and more every day. Not that I didn’t love my first, obviously. It’s just that I was worried about so many things that didn’t really matter, it was difficult to just enjoy him like I have with his brother.

  4. So sweet! Children are so wonderful at living in the moment, and I try hard to be as good at that as my son is. I always fail. I will never be as “present” as he is, but I am a better mom for trying, that’s for sure. Thanks for the powerful thoughts.

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