I spent the last few weeks just trying to get through the first chapter of Grace for the Good Girl. I’m certainly going to have to pick up the pace, for the sake of not stretching out one book for six months… but dang. Emily’s words are tearing me up! My paper copy resembles one of my middle school rough drafts – underlining, circling, arrows everywhere. For this post, I decided to share a few quotes, along with my interpretations. I might get better as I progress through the book, but right now I just can’t afford to focus on one thought. He’s moving me too much to stay put for too long.
On giving up on hiding and allowing yourself to be found…
The cross gives us permission to sit down on the inside because we have a God who knows what he’s doing. Deep breath. And a little zing to my pride. Y’all probably know this by now, but I’m a doer. I say yes. I don’t get tired. I don’t need to sit down. I somehow think I’ve found a way strong-arm my own version of the gospel into aligning with my desires and goals. Reading a woman tell me to sit down and focus on the cross wounds me and soothes me in the most beautifully twisted way.
On exercising faith, REAL faith…
I want to let go, rest, and believe, so that he can hold, refresh and redeem. But what if I do and he doesn’t? To read between the lines of faith is to see Jesus. I realized that I’ve never truly lived by faith. I know what it means and I know how to do it, but I don’t. Why? Because if I were honest, I’d admit that those exact words have crossed my mind countless times… what if I let go and He doesn’t come through? I speak and sing and gush of His faithfulness all day long, and yet I’ve never really invited Him to show his faithfulness to me. He’s had to knock on the door of my heart and ask to love me, every single time.
Fear drives. Love leads. Any questions?
It’s time for this good girl to come out of hiding. It’s time for me to be led gently by love, instead of driven harshly by fear. It’s time for me to open up my arms and heart. Here it is, Lord. I’m shaky and nervous and a little bit embarrassed, but here I am.